I didn’t meet you for lunch that day because
I had to make a fucking run for it.
I had to put as much distance between me
and that place as I could.
I had to walk through the snow
Though the frozen bits blinded me with cold,
I had to see my breath in front of me.
The white vapor that meant I was still here.
I had to trudge on
with that bag on my back,
the weight of it eroding a valley
in the soft skin over my shoulder bone.
I had to be outside longer
to feel myself in the cold.
‘Til my outsides matched my insides.
‘Til I could no longer stand it.
Until there was no choice but
to go back inside,
dripping and shaking and
admit what the hell I’d gotten myself in to.
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photograph by Ashim D’SilvaHire An Editor